Cockblock

I was talking to an old crush/coworker today. At first, I thought he was just passing time on his break but then I saw he wasn’t eating his food and actually talking to me. It was surreal. Maybe I’m inside too much but it was nice to sit down and have a conversation with someone, face-to-face. Seeing that person’s smile… Hearing their laugh. I miss all of that.

And then my dad walked in with the kids and fucked up our conversation. I found out later that he told the kids to go to Dominique. He gave me the baby and said, “When you’re done here, go home with him [the baby].”

When she was 17 years old

My mom still has her prom dress. I've always admired how pretty it was. I grew up looking at this picture (see below).

I finally decided to try it on and it fits. Well, I had more boobs than her at the time but it fits. My mom and grandmother were like, "You should wear it to prom!" I honestly want a red dress to compliment my skin tone. It's beautiful though.

Somewhere Only We Know

Seven months of nappy

Yesterday marked seven months since I cut my hair. I still don't regret it and my hair has been growing like weeds.

I actually got my hair into a bunny tail. I can't describe how excited I was!

College stuff

I've finally taken the first step to actually thinking about my future. I know that I want to be a psychiatrist and that's four years at a college and four years at a medical school and another four years doing a residency. As for the college I want to study at, I want to come back to Florida. My mom and I planned college trips to FSU, UCF, and Florida Southern.

I already visited FSU and it's beautiful. The brick buildings make me think of Hogwarts for some reason. We drove seven hours to get to Tallahassee from Miami and spent the night at a hotel. The next day we actually went on a tour around the campus and learned some tips on admission process. It was a fun experience and I learned a lot. So far, I really want to go to FSU. Later in the week, I'll visit other colleges.

So, far, I've been looking for scholarships. Out of state tuition is no game. I plan on finding little scholarships every few nights and signing up for them and hopefully, when a few so that I can at least pay for some of my tuition. I'll of course sign up for grants when I'm with my dad because I need his information.

I'm back in the Sunshine State!

It feels great to be back where the sun is always shining and it's ok to be half naked.

I went shopping and bought some new tanktops and shorts for the summer. I also got a taste of my mom's mango from her mango tree in the yard and they are delicious! I'm extremely happy that I finally got to come down after 6 months of being away. I'm surprised my job let me have a whole month off to see my mom and do college tours. I plan to go to University of Central Florida, Florida Southern, and Florida State University. It's going to be a roadtrip with my mom, sisters, and I.

On Memorial Day, we went to the beach with all of my sisters which was fun but exhausting. I forgot how slow they hate ice cream. It melted all over their small little hands.

Sigh

I spent the day with my dad and 5 month old brother. We went to Longhorn and I paid for our $60 meal.

While I was loading into the car, someone texted me to ask if I wanted to go see The Hangover Part 2. I replied, “Yes! What time and place and where? Can I get a ride?” I didn’t get a text back so I asked me dad if he wanted to see the movie and he said yea. I texted the dude back and said, “I’m going there now.” He asked who I was with and I said my dad. 

Negro never texted back. He ended up not going. I bet he just needed a ride.

If you’re gonna use me, at least pay me. I’m not supplying free rides; gas is too high for that shit.