Party Fail

Yesterday night, I tried to partying. That was an epic fail. It was nothing like I imagined partying to be. I guess I should of known better from how well homecoming went. The amount of people that I thought was gonna be at both parties was disappointing and I couldn't see anyone face (is that normal?). I just felt awkward. Did I mention that I tried to go to two parties? Yea, it really wasn't my night.
I went to Burger King for some ice cream and then to Walmart to hang out for a while in my costume. That was more fun than my just standing at the two parties for a few minutes.
I guess I'm not a party person. Maybe if I wasn't in the right mind I would of had some fun.

Dominiques

I hate that other people share the same name. When I hear my name it's never for me and that's just makes me feel inadequate. I'm known has the short Dominique but I wish I had a better indicator or nickname that is just mine.

I know a name is just something you're called by to distinguish you from the rest but I've always thought my name was mine I went to middle school and not it's even more downhill that I'm at a high school with 3,000+ students. I know of five Dominiques and one of them is very well known. I'm kinda jealous.

Lately, it's been hectic

Hey guys, haven't been on here for a while but I just wanted to tell you that senior year is hard. I only have 4 classes and I feel like the stress of it all is killing me. I have yet to start applying... I signed up for the ACT though, so I just need to do well and write 2 essays (well, technically, I'm going to write one and change a few words).
At work, they changed the whole system so I had to learn how to use a new register which is all sorts of complicated.. Supposedly, it makes things easier but without tickets, I just get confused. I honestly don't want to do drive-thru because of the complexity of this new system. And the managers... I just don't like them. They come in with new rules and expect us all to just follow? They're getting on my damn nerves for no reason! Also, one of the managers were like, "You and that guy look cute together." Which is funny because we did try but it didn't work out. But that's just another annoying aspect of the job because everyone is all into my love life. Not cool.

New Guy

We have this new guy and I like working with him. He isn't slow in packing and if you tell him something once, he comprehends unlike this other girl they hired. He's way better than that other girl! She legit just stares at orders and doesn't do shit. And then, when she does pack orders she does everything wrong.
The new guy is a senior like myself, at my rival school. I wonder if he's single or not. I pretty much have to ask him questions to get anything out of him because he's pretty quiet. He keeps to himself unless he has a question about something. He reminds me of me but as a guy, they'll talk to him more than they talk to me. I guess this is my chance to be more open and make a new friend.

The pros of my own car

I had to bring my brother with me to this last minute invite to a block party. It wasn't fun and we pretty much got kicked out because a whole bunch of teenagers (my group) were all trying to be on the trampoline all at once. Once we took their candy, we had to take this girl home because she was grounded. We all went to her house and chilled outside. After a good two hours outside her house, it began to rain. I had to take home two guys so me, them, and my brother ended up at one of the guys house and chilling. The guy's brother was playing a shooting game on the PS3 and my brother just got so excited. He just kept talking throughout the whole game. I told my brother to be quiet... But that didn't work. So, I began to tell him to shut up and he one up-ed me with "shut the fuck up". He began to sing that phrase til I tackled him to the ground. After that, I don't know why but I ended up wrestling with the guys until it was 11:54.
It was a pretty crazy night. Now, I have to do some homework :/

I'm going to hate senior year

First, I had to go to this place called Maxwell. The teacher seems cool and all but it's depressing to be out of the loop at school for the first three classes.
I walked into my fourth period class and everyone was like, "What are you doing here?" Mind you, I came back to school from a 20 minute drive from Maxwell and went to the wrong bus (which is gonna be changed). My whole class is mad that we have to change their lunch because they have all their friends in C lunch. It is what it is.
I failed two quizzes... I hardly think it's fair to test students on the first day of school. I hate teachers who ask questions on the littlest details. I read the book! You don't need to ask me what color the stupid thing wore. I'm going to reread that book and make a list of characters and little, stupid details because this class is gonna kick my butt. That was all my AP Literature class. I also failed my AP Chemistry quiz but that's whatever. I'm more scared for AP Literature then anything else. 

That's how the cookie crumbles

This guy has been trying to go to the movies with me and I keep cancelling on him because my family and I are all broke. My dad and step mom are waiting for some check and my dad borrowed the rest of my money so we don't have much entertainment money.
I just found out that my dad has $20 that he could give me but the movie theater that I wanted to is too far and $10 worth of gas wouldn't get me there and back with the truck. That's the reason I kept cancelling.
Now, my friend who does drive asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with him and he can pick me up so now it seems like I just didn't want to go with him. I don't have gas money and I'm telling my friend that I'll give him gas money when I get paid, next week.

Cockblock

I was talking to an old crush/coworker today. At first, I thought he was just passing time on his break but then I saw he wasn’t eating his food and actually talking to me. It was surreal. Maybe I’m inside too much but it was nice to sit down and have a conversation with someone, face-to-face. Seeing that person’s smile… Hearing their laugh. I miss all of that.

And then my dad walked in with the kids and fucked up our conversation. I found out later that he told the kids to go to Dominique. He gave me the baby and said, “When you’re done here, go home with him [the baby].”

When she was 17 years old

My mom still has her prom dress. I've always admired how pretty it was. I grew up looking at this picture (see below).

I finally decided to try it on and it fits. Well, I had more boobs than her at the time but it fits. My mom and grandmother were like, "You should wear it to prom!" I honestly want a red dress to compliment my skin tone. It's beautiful though.

Somewhere Only We Know

Seven months of nappy

Yesterday marked seven months since I cut my hair. I still don't regret it and my hair has been growing like weeds.

I actually got my hair into a bunny tail. I can't describe how excited I was!

College stuff

I've finally taken the first step to actually thinking about my future. I know that I want to be a psychiatrist and that's four years at a college and four years at a medical school and another four years doing a residency. As for the college I want to study at, I want to come back to Florida. My mom and I planned college trips to FSU, UCF, and Florida Southern.

I already visited FSU and it's beautiful. The brick buildings make me think of Hogwarts for some reason. We drove seven hours to get to Tallahassee from Miami and spent the night at a hotel. The next day we actually went on a tour around the campus and learned some tips on admission process. It was a fun experience and I learned a lot. So far, I really want to go to FSU. Later in the week, I'll visit other colleges.

So, far, I've been looking for scholarships. Out of state tuition is no game. I plan on finding little scholarships every few nights and signing up for them and hopefully, when a few so that I can at least pay for some of my tuition. I'll of course sign up for grants when I'm with my dad because I need his information.

I'm back in the Sunshine State!

It feels great to be back where the sun is always shining and it's ok to be half naked.

I went shopping and bought some new tanktops and shorts for the summer. I also got a taste of my mom's mango from her mango tree in the yard and they are delicious! I'm extremely happy that I finally got to come down after 6 months of being away. I'm surprised my job let me have a whole month off to see my mom and do college tours. I plan to go to University of Central Florida, Florida Southern, and Florida State University. It's going to be a roadtrip with my mom, sisters, and I.

On Memorial Day, we went to the beach with all of my sisters which was fun but exhausting. I forgot how slow they hate ice cream. It melted all over their small little hands.

Sigh

I spent the day with my dad and 5 month old brother. We went to Longhorn and I paid for our $60 meal.

While I was loading into the car, someone texted me to ask if I wanted to go see The Hangover Part 2. I replied, “Yes! What time and place and where? Can I get a ride?” I didn’t get a text back so I asked me dad if he wanted to see the movie and he said yea. I texted the dude back and said, “I’m going there now.” He asked who I was with and I said my dad. 

Negro never texted back. He ended up not going. I bet he just needed a ride.

If you’re gonna use me, at least pay me. I’m not supplying free rides; gas is too high for that shit.

Just a thought

If I get married, I think we would have to take loads of breaks from each other… Not “ok since we’re not together, let’s fuck other people” breaks, just little vacations from each other. I can’t stand being in the same house with people nonstop unless we’re doing something. I don’t like “just” existing in the same house as someone.. There must be communication or I think I’ll go insane and make you hate me just so we can talk to one another.

Six Flags: May 21, 2011

The world didn't end.. But if it did, I spent my day at Six Flags. It's the week before school is out for summer and there were barely any long lines. The longest we waited for a ride was 50 minutes which is pretty good considering it was Six Flags.

I went with three guys and honestly, I prefered it that way. There were so lucid with whatever they wanted to say or do. They just did it. I envy people who take advantage of freedom of speech. I could never just freely talk about something socially unacceptable in public.

A lot of random things happened that day:

This lady and her daughter stole me and my friends seat when we were putting our stuff down at the landing dock. It was a slightly awkward and funny situation. We looked back and the lady was smiling and laughing... And she waved! I laughed too but the type of awkward laugh - "what are you doing?" When the other two guys got off, they were being really obvious that they disliked the lady. It's sucks that the Six Flags employee say the whole thing and didn't do anything about it. He told us to exit the dock area.. It's whatever because we left to go to more extreme rides.

There was also a lady with a numb for one of her legs. It's either she took her disability too far or the guys were being disrespectful because when I returned to the guys, there was tension in the air. I tried to make a scene but they told me to shut up and we walked away. Supposedly, Paul skipped her in line and she didn't like that at all. I'm pretty sure he was there first.

I always fail to ride Batman at Six Flags but I do remember riding Goliath, Mind Bender, bumper cars, the swing ride, Superman, Thunder River, and a little water ride that makes us fall down a waterfall with a big splash. I loved the Thunder River the most because it was hilarious being in a boat with strangers and watching their reactions.

The group (left to right): Cee, Matt, Paul, Me

I won a supergirl cap and a squid hat.

Six Month Nappiversary

No products:

The curlies

I'm so excited that I accomplished this. Well, my body did but still, I took care of it.

Six Months of growth

Sesame Street Twin

Stranger

So, last night before I got off work, I have to clean the lobby. So, as I was finishing up, a coworker of mine came with his friends. One of his friends said, “Heyyyyyyyy! How you durin’ girl!?” And reached out his arms for a hug. Note that I don’t know him. He seemed friendly so I gave him a hug. He started making small talk with me as my coworker was waiting for his food to cook. The guy was one of those people that are friendly and act so strange that all you can do is giggle/laugh at their antics. 

As I left, the dude said, “It was nice meeting you!” I said same here and walked to my car. At this point, my coworker and his friends went outside. As I was walking to the car, I heard my coworker say to him, “You don’t even know her name.” He replied, “So.” It sounded so carefree like it was so irrelevant that he talked to someone that was probably years younger than him.

Guys in my hair

This morning I walked with my friend to meet one of her friends. This guy that I don't frequently talk to came up to me. He held his hands out like he was holding a ball. I saw he looked like he wanted to grab my hair so I said, "Go ahead." He automatically started playing in my hair. It was pretty funny. I kinda wish I had a picture of the view. A friend of his that I'm more acquainted with came up and screamed, "I WANT TO TOUCH IT TOO!" So, I had two guys in my hair for about a minute or two and they backed up and the first guy placed a hand on my shoulder before he left.
Hand in hair disease is contagious.  

Hate this about myself.

I constantly find myself self-editing myself before I speak. Most times, I run out of time and I just lost a potential moment to leave an impression on someone. When I rush whatever I want to say, it sounds wrong and unintelligent and most times, people point out the flaw.
I'm not proud of this part of myself. I want to just say the first thing that pops into my head but I'm scared of the response.

Discovery

Just because I feel like telling this short story, I will.

I wore my oversized uniform shirt today because my other shirt was dirty. This other guy who is really buff has a shirt that is tight in the arm area. So he said, “We should switch shirts.” I thought about it all day and at 9PM, I told him, “Let’s switch shirts.” So, he looked at me for a second and I started taking my shirt off while the manager was away. Meanwhile, the guy on drive-thru turned to me and was like, “Woah! Where did those come from?!” We switched shirts and he realized the shirts were the same size so there was no point in switching shirts. But the flash of my boobs will forever be in their heads because according to them they thought I was a “33 A” cup.

Haha, and I had a tanktop under my uniform shirt so it’s not like I just took of the shirt and stood in my bra for a second while at work.

This guy thought I was Ethiopian at work

He’s Ethopian and asked if I was and I said, “I don’t think so.” He asked where I’m from and I said Haiti. He said, “Well, you could of came from anywhere in Africa! You should check your DNA and see.” I laughed and said sure. After I gave him his receipt, he turned to his little daughter and asked, “Doesn’t she?”

He was a little too excited.

About a person I know

It sucks how many times you and a person can share eye contact and never take it further. No "hey", "what’s up", "how’s it going".. Just those few seconds where you don’t know what to do but stare and hope the other is thinking about you the way that you’re thinking about them.

I don’t like this guy but he’s the type of person that you want to talk to but don’t know how to start a conversation with.

It’s funny when I hear that he has referenced me in a conversation or even starts a random little chat about something.

He’s a nice guy.

My teacher told us that she is going to another school next year.

My class took it badly because it’s about 14 of us in there and we’ve become a family. We gave our teacher a rapper name and she pretty much knows our lives. We plan imaginary scenarios and even semi-planned a 49th union of the class together at Taco Bell.

She says she wants change. We didn't think of her changing her life as we move on with our lives next year. Just always expected her to be where she is. 

6 months since the big chop

Wasting my paycheck

It's sad how I can't save my money. I had over $250 and I don't have to pay bills., so why don't have the same amount of money I had when I first received my check? I went online and started shopping. It's funny because having a job takes up all my time so what's the point of getting money when I can't go anywhere? I bought clothes for the one chance I'm off.

I'll be off for a month during the summer because of college tours so I'll enjoy my clothes in Florida. I don't think the clothes I bought are acceptable for a college tour... I bought shorts and tanks for those days when I go out for something fun, like the pool, movies, parties (that I hope to attend this summer).

Some of the clothes that I bought.

Don't mind that pose.

"Are you mixed?"

When people ask if I’m mixed, I tell them that I’m Haitian.

That doesn’t answer their question but they accept it as black. I put black on my important documents but you never know with the Caribbean. I

Worst day at work by far

First, a group of guys (about 5 of them) came into Burger King. I already knew I wasn't going to enjoy taking their order because they're eyes were glazed over. They step up to the counter and their odor just hits me. They were high, like it was 4/20 day high. Every time they talked, the smell just hit me, over and over again. This one guy had dreads in a mohawk and I was just staring at it because I don't see that hairstyle that much... I guess he thought I liked him or something because he leaned over to talk in my ear and asked if I could hook him up with some free fries... Hell no. I told him, "I don't pack the food, sorry." He laughed, in my face, and said alright. They kept coming to the counter to buy more food which I disliked so much. After they left, I had to clean their mess. Tell me why they weren't conscious enough to not make a mess like they were three? I hate people like them.

There was also this really dumb lady that came to the counter. She ordered 3 whoppers. At the Burger King that I work out, we have a buy one, get one free whopper. I asked her if she wanted 4 whoppers and just pay for 2 and she's like, "No, I just want three whoppers." We go back and forth with this because I was only trying to help her and she wasn't seeing that. So, in the end, she buys her whoppers and after I ring it up, she's like, "I want my other free whopper." I'm looking at her like, "Bitch, I already rang it up." My manager intervenes and says that already told that she could of gotten two free whoppers before. I had a customer after her so I missed the whole conversation. She ended up coming back to the register asking for her money back. She looked pissed. I'm kinda glad she left because she got on my nerves but those wasted whoppers...

My Hair Texture

I would be a 4A/4b or a OS texture.

Sunshine Lifestyle

I dunno how to explain it but I guess the best way to describe the lifestyle I want to live is how Travie McCoy dresses. California/beachy. I'm working on my natural hair for the messy but beautiful look... I need tank tops, daisy dukes, and some sandals. I also like Bruno Mars style of music. Easy-going and just chill.

One day... 

My Life in a Song

This is the song for those that don't enjoy outside...

Pissed for no reason

In my AP Psychology class, I sit in front of this lazy, senior chick who does nothing but complain and talk about stupid stuff in class. What does this have to do with me? She’s a complete nuisance. Her voice is so high pitch and annoying and she doesn’t stay in her business. When she has nothing to talk about, she starts looking around for something to talk about. I don’t understand why she would talk to me. We had an earlier confrontation where it was obvious that I didn’t like her and she still tried to talk to me. And then later, as I’m walking to class, she has the nerve to keep talking about me. Her voice was so loud that I could hear from 20 feet away. I’m guessing she wanted a fight because it was so obvious that she was talking about me. If only I wasn’t so stubborn, I would change seats but I picked that desk first and hate little changes like that. One more months of this and then I won’t have to hear her annoying voice again.

A feeling

I love when I have a crush on someone because every time I’m around them I get this goofy smile and laugh to myself just thinking about them.  I guess you could call me creepy because I give them side glances and then go back to what I was doing; this continues til I leave where ever the guy is. 

Even when I’m thinking about them, people ask me what’s so funny and I can’t tell them because I can’t answer. It’s not something I can explain, it’s just a euphoric feeling.

My thoughts on the new movie “Something Borrowed”

Why would I introduce my best friend to a guy that I’ve had a huge crush on. In my mind, he’s mine and if I didn’t officially lay claim to him before my friends meet him, then they aren’t meeting him. If they so happen to meet him and like him to then I’ll become the bitch and we would practically be fighting over the guy until he choses which one of us he likes best. I won’t be sour if he likes her because at least I tried. 

Customer-Worker Relationship

This guy, around my age, came to the cash register and ordered four whopper juniors and a small fry. While I was getting his change, he asked do they do drug tests to be hired. I told him, “No, just be sober when you turn in your application.” He nodded his head and waited for his food. After a few minutes, I gave him his food and he asked how old I was. After I responded, he paused and then asked for my number. At this moment, I’m like, “Did he just seriously ask me for my number? I do a once over of him and told him, “I don’t think I’m allowed to… We’re super busy. If you wait til we aren’t, then sure.” He said, “Nah,” and left.

Thank God he didn’t stay.

Outsider

There's a group of teenagers outside of my neighbor's house and I had to walk passed them and I noticed the air that surrounded them.. Well, it was more like an aura. It was like a teen movie. I was amazed at the height difference between them and me and how they all were just chillin', having a good time. For a second, I wanted to go up to them and try to fit in but I looked down at my attire, pajama pants and house slippers, and was reminded of why I was outside in the first place.
I was one decision away from possibly making friends in my neighborhood... Oh well. 

Busy hands

I've noticed that when I get nervous I start to feel itchy, grab my ear and tug, or pull the coils in my hair. I wonder why my hands have to be preoccupied while I'm receiving news that I may not want to hear or listening to a lecture that I'm actually paying attention to. 

Dear Diary

When I go to college, I want to keep a journal of all the people I meet and the new experiences. I want something to look back on besides smiles. I want my actual thoughts on a piece of paper so I can go back and laugh at my immaturity or just analyze my state of mind at the time I was writing the event/about the person.

Opps

I missed my 4th month nappiversary... But it's grown (: And it's noticable

4 months strong

As you can see, that's two months of new growth from my dye job. I really want to redye it but I have to wait for my step mom, the professional, to do it.

Guess what!

So I've finally gotten a job! Yay me! I work at Burger King now and so far it's ok. I hate how I get nervous around the managers or more experienced workers so they push me to the side because I'm taking too long. I need to speed up in getting the food in the bag and what not. I hope Saturday isn't busy because I'm not ready to be left alone on a busy day.

3 Months!

I'm late but it's been 3 months since my big chop. My hair is growing like weeds! I'm so excited and people have noticed the growth. My hair from my widow's peak is a little past my eyebrow (sorry no picture).
I recently did a twist-out while I was home with my brothers on Sunday.

This is when I was half way done

I'm terrible at this

When I say 'this' I mean blogging. It's mean a whole month since I've been on blogger and it sucks because I had my heart set on blogging.
It's weird. At times, I have the need to type something but I don't know what. I'm at lost for words most of the time. I'm horrible at confrontation and I actually get nervous just thinking about it. (Some) People see me as brave and uncaring but I struggle with little things like conversations and other stuff. I criticize people in my head just to keep myself from thinking about the one person I should be worried about. Myself.

Anyway, I recently went to the Bronner Brothers' International Hair Show on Saturday, February 19, 2011. It was fun and I got to meet a naturalista that I watch on YouTube.

Blackonyx77

I actually saw a lot of interesting hairstyles that I posted on facebook and my other blog.

Experience or lack of

I’m seventeen years old with little experience in anything in life.

People around me expect me to go crazy in college.

I won’t give them that satisfaction because I’m small and can be easily taken over if I’m not in my right state of mind.

I guess that’s one of my greatest fears, not having control over myself.

I've noticed that my hair gets springier the longer I go without a co-wash.
I love co-washing my hair but I also like playing with my hair in class, just playings with the springs.

Decisions, decisions. I'll allow my hair to do it's thing this week and see if I like this routine.

Maroon and Grey

School bums

I've always wanted to ask kids why do they give teachers a hard time. Is it worth it? What about the kids who actually want to learn? I'm one of those kids who just needs the information so that I can be done with the class by the end of the year. All of the unnecessary fights with the teacher just takes away time that could of been spent learning the material so they wouldn't feel the need to ask someone who was paying attention, "What just happened?"

Do people have it so bad at home that they resort to that behavior at school?

Flickr

I decided to remake a flickr account and post my pictures on there. It just makes life easier for me.

Flickr

you know that feeling when you just feel alone even though people will disagree that you are?

i constantly feel that way. does that mean i’m depressed or i just want new companionship? i just don’t feel connected. everyone around me has a weekend plan and is excited for their plans and i just sit there and think, “aw, that’s nice.”

i’m not the type of person to just jump into a conversation.. heck. i’m dislike making the first move period, but i do it… sometimes, when the person is just as alone as i am. 

the thing about my school is that everyone has their group of friends and it’s like a wall. i’m on the other side and no matter how hard i try to climb over it, i can’t get over that wall. 

if you knew me, you’d know my attempts at trying to make plans end up in a bust. even then, i have to think hard about the people i invite because i don’t have those “ah-ha” moments where i can just list off a number of people i’d want to hang out with. 

my life as a teenager only has small moments of excitement and the rest of it is just wishing for people to talk to on the regular bases.

So sad

I wonder what people say behind my back. I hear a lot of things that may apply to me when people talk about others behind their back, for example, when someone sees a girl with nappy hair and says, “Can she even get a comb through it?” I feel bad that I don’t say anything but I feel that even if I said anything they wouldn’t listen anyway. Is it wrong of me not to say anything? People are going to think what they want, even if I try to correct them this time. My words don’t have any power in high school and that saddens me.

Play shoot

Dress for Success

Two Outfits